And yet you're saying that were your positions reversed, you would have preferred he let you die. Is that not a failure that would have harmed someone? Someone he deeply cares about, for that matter?
Now you're just being stubborn. It's no wonder you're having nightmares if you keep letting your mind spiral this way.
Consider this, Kaveh-senpai: It doesn't matter who does and does not deserve to bear the consequences. It's natural to be afraid of making mistakes. What does matter is putting in the effort to prevent those mistakes from happening again.
You've spent years vehemently denying to everyone with ears that you're in love with him. Especially to him. You're fully prepared to take that secret with you to the grave. Of course having those ruins force it out of you was terrifying. You're only human.
I'm not saying it wasn't wrong and that a simple apology will make it all better. I'm saying that this is the fear you need to work on overcoming so that you won't be paralyzed like that again.
To be fair I'm also saying that you're two of the most stubborn people I've ever met, and I've met the Raiden Shogun.
[If they were still in Teyvat, Heizou could already see the headline. Renowned Inazuman Detective Sentenced for the Murder of Former Acting Grand Sage of the Akademiya.
[He's letting out just... the biggest sigh in the world right now. Heizou gets that. He really, really does. But right now his support is with Kaveh, and that means he doesn't have time to get Alhaitham to warm up to him enough first.]
All right. But I better not hear about you trying to pretend it didn't happen. You need to talk to each other about what you've just gone through.
[Kaveh considers asking why it is always on him to start these conversations, but he's too tired. he doesn't want to just go silent either. so after a long moment, there is a response.]
ok.
[being silent might have been less alarming, Kaveh.]
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Date: 17 Mar 2024 22:42 (UTC)no subject
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Date: 17 Mar 2024 22:58 (UTC)I'm the only one who should bear the consequences.
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Date: 17 Mar 2024 23:15 (UTC)Consider this, Kaveh-senpai: It doesn't matter who does and does not deserve to bear the consequences. It's natural to be afraid of making mistakes. What does matter is putting in the effort to prevent those mistakes from happening again.
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Date: 17 Mar 2024 23:22 (UTC)This isn't as simple as saying cruel words in a thoughtless moment. I was so scared to be honest it nearly killed him, Heizou.
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Date: 17 Mar 2024 23:39 (UTC)I'm not saying it wasn't wrong and that a simple apology will make it all better. I'm saying that this is the fear you need to work on overcoming so that you won't be paralyzed like that again.
To be fair I'm also saying that you're two of the most stubborn people I've ever met, and I've met the Raiden Shogun.
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Date: 18 Mar 2024 00:44 (UTC)and yet the alternative was this.
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Date: 18 Mar 2024 01:39 (UTC)no subject
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Date: 18 Mar 2024 02:06 (UTC)[I'm sorry, what?]
What do you mean "he didn't"?
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Date: 18 Mar 2024 02:11 (UTC)no subject
Date: 18 Mar 2024 02:19 (UTC)But they're not in Teyvat.......]
Does someone need to talk to him?
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Date: 18 Mar 2024 02:21 (UTC)[genuinely kaveh didn't think this was an option?]
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Date: 18 Mar 2024 02:31 (UTC)Though I'm also not sure who else he could talk to.
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Date: 18 Mar 2024 02:34 (UTC)He's always been fairly isolated. He takes a while to warm up and no one much wants to bother getting him to open up.
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Date: 18 Mar 2024 02:39 (UTC)All right. But I better not hear about you trying to pretend it didn't happen. You need to talk to each other about what you've just gone through.
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Date: 18 Mar 2024 06:34 (UTC)ok.
[being silent might have been less alarming, Kaveh.]